(speechless)

Utterly speechless...... tonight I shared my past to help out a friend and a group of strangers, and in the end I can only think of the differences that have made me a better man, and yet I still can feel the pain of the past tinge me to the core. AMAZING! And the weird part is that it's not a bad thing by any means. This feeling, this undescribably feeling is just amazing - and it's amazing because it's something that can't be fully enveloped or expressed. It's just amazing.

I'm contemplative and yet I'm fully understanding of my thoughts and feelings, and then I feel angry and upset and yet feel forgiveness and hope.

I mean, God must be intervening in some way to be letting me feel this.